It’s been 1 month and 3 days since we lost Robbie. I haven’t shed a tear yet today but I’m sure they will come at some point. I am an absolutely fanatic about Christmas however, this year I have not really had the energy or brain capacity to make it happen like normal. With that being said, as every other day since 11/22 I have made the conscious choice to live in what I have now, to cherish every damn amazing memory of Robbie we have, to talk about him and remember him because for this family it is part of our healing process. We see the signs of him everywhere, I am grateful he is so excited to show us he lives on. It can’t just be coincidence that the electric was out most of the night at Bub’s house and tada on it comes at 9:22 (Rob’s birthday) this morning. No, we don’t make this shit up as unbelievable as it sounds. We live and love it everyday.
I know we all grieve differently but, without my faith and beliefs in life, purpose, our journey on this plane, and death I am not sure how I would manage each day. And also the support I have from my circle of people. I hope that I will always be grounded by this but know that at any moment I could be in a far different place. One day at time....
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